Monday, April 27, 2009

A Series of Moments

"I held a moment in my hand, brilliant as a star, fragile as a flower, a tiny sliver of one hour. I dripped it carelessly, Ah! I didn't know, I held opportunity.” - Hazel Lee


Time is ticking away and I find myself at the start of my third trimester. 12 more weeks to go!


Although I haven't been updating this blog very often, it's not for lack of reflection on this process. Not at all. Instead, the process has been so personal - both miraculous and banal - that I'm finding putting it all into words extremely difficult.


Over the last few months, there have been amazing moments:

  • Laying in bed one night after an amazing prenatal yoga class and recognizing that I truly love this little being inside me. I know nothing about her and yet feel more strongly about her than I ever have of anyone.

And irritating moments:


  • Folks seem to think that pregnant women are wearing a sign that says "Yes, blessed stranger, please share your opinion with me." My latest favorite: Our brunch waitress nearly refusing to serve me cup of regular coffee and, when I insisted, insinuating that I would "doing anything to get that baby to come early." Thank you, madame MD.

And a lot of simple, beautiful, everyday life moments:

  • Sitting on the couch with my husband's hand on my belly feeling our little girl squirm and experiencing complete contentment.
  • Looking out the rear view mirror as I left my parent's house this weekend and realizing that the next time I visit that house I, myself, will be a parent.
  • Hearing our little girl's heartbeat at each doctor appointment and completely forgetting day's worries and to-do lists.

In these moments, my life is changing forever. I guess it always has. I'm grateful that pregnancy has made me notice.

2 comments:

Meredith and Thad said...

It only gets better my dear friend. It won't be long until you just sit around and stare at her precious little face! Glad you are enjoying this time!

Carolina John said...

congrats on only having 12 weeks to go. my kids were born 4 weeks and 2 weeks early, but that's both considered to be full term. by now the baby's done developing new parts, it just has to grow enough to be able to get by outside of the womb. it's an incredibly cool time.

pregnancy does make you reflect on a lot of things, and lean on other people like you never expected you would have to. hang in there and you will have the baby before you know it.

one last thing: try and get a weekend away just you and the husband in the next 8 weeks or so. it's the last time you will be able to get away for a long time. go to the beach or mountains or whatever. but when the baby comes, it will be about 6 - 8 months (with my kids at least) before the baby will be able to sit in a car seat for more than a 30 minute drive. so it's your last chance to head for the mountains until christmas.

I was in raleigh for a triathlon april 19th, and put some race pics on the blog. we're trying to move up that way, but it's not easy with 2 kids. have a great week!